Hi, my name is Ang and I don't know if anyone will really read this, but it may be interesting to others. I want to share the things that happen to me at school. I am a sophomore in college and so far, college has been absolutely amazing!!
Going into college last year, I had a boyfriend of one year. Shawn was amazing, well in the beginning. However, I realized that he was trying to control my life, and I lost my 5 best girl friends. At school, he wouldn't let me go out and party. I had enough and broke up with him. That was the best thing that happened to me last year. I felt instantly free.
When I was only 4 years old my father had an accident and ever since has been disabled. Because of this he has had so many surgeries and is sick all the time. My mother has always instilled in me to be a strong woman and that I do not need a man to make me strong. She is right, I am a strong woman, and I have her to thank for that.
After my break up with Shawn I was liberated and from that day on, I have had the best college experience!!!! I love to party. I have so much fun when I drink and go out. I have the time of my life. When I go out I get all done up and I make myself look great. It's bad to say, but I really do love attention from guys. Guys make my self-esteem either rise or decline. That is one of my flaws.
I never thought I would want a relationship again in college, however this past Halloween I met Joe. At school I have a lot of random hook ups, and I thought Joe was going to be my next random hookup. However, I got hooked. Joe and I have been talking ever since. He is the same year as me, and is just amazing. He would walk to my dorm a couple times a week just to talk. He is so caring and thoughtful.
Finally, 2 weeks ago we had sex. It was amazing and the whole time he was worried about pleasuring me (which is different than normal college guys!!). However, we didn't use protection so we bought Plan B. Plan B messed me up! I was so emotional! I didn't tell him this though because I was home from school when I took it.
Joe's father passed away 5 years ago from cancer. It broke my heart when I found out. When my dad was in the hospital last week my dad said one of the doctors said he may have congestive heart failure. I completely lost it. Heart failure? I knew my dad wasn't going to live forever, but the prognosis for congestive heart failure is five years. Who is going to walk me down the aisle? Who is going to dance with me for my father daughter dance at my wedding? Who are my children going to know as their grandfather? I was seriously depressed for two days straight. All I did was cry, hysterically. However, Joe helped me through so much. I didn't tell Joe everything but just him being there for me helped. The small
things really do matter!
Now, I live an hour away from school and am still on winter break; however, Joe is doing winter session at school so he is there now. I wanted to visit him tomorrow because I have to drive down there anyway to pick up my paycheck. But Joe has a test on Wednesday so he'll be studying "all day" Monday and Tuesday. I know he is really big on studying and his grades, and that's great, it's just really annoying because I wanted to see him and have some alone time because I haven't seen him in person since the first and only time we had sex. I don't want to be clingy, especially since we decided that we aren't in a relationship because we don't need that label, but its just hard.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to seem clingy but I really want to see him. I want him to want me more than I want him! That's my key with guys! I always make them wanting more and I play hard to get. You never let guys know exactly how much you like them!!!
I know this was really long and I'm sorry I just had to catch you up on some things! I have some great stories, especially after the weekends at college! So if you're interested in really knowing what goes on at college, keep reading.