Arrrh!!! I can't do it anymore, life just sucks....there is now no point of living apart from supporting your friends when they need advice. I hate it, i hate me, the great big fat lump of saturated and mono-saturated fats...i bet i'm going to die of heart disease or something like that. Oh why do i have to be so FAT, i look like a wollowing hippo, or maybe even fatter :o

I can't stand lying and deciving people about the cuts and other things anymore, its just not in my nature to do so, i feel that i am letting everyone down by doing so. Lying goes against everything i believe in, but i just can't tell them the truth...oh why i am such a idiot and scaredy cat :(

Engineering is f****ing killing me 15hours work to do in 2hours, its impossible. I detest it so much but i can't stop, i'm going to fail it. I'm going to let everyone down again.

If you think you let people down by doing those things, you'd let people down 1000+ more times if you ended your life.. Your friends and family would be heart broken.. Weither you feel like it or not, they would be.. And people you don't even know would be effected by it too.. They'd feel guilty, and alot would feel like they where partly to blame.. They'll spend forever thinking "What if..." "I should of done/said..." "I shouldn't of done/said.." And that goes on for a very long time.. Its just not worth it.. It may even leave people feeling as bad (or worse) as you feel now..
I don't know what to say about how you feel about being 'fat' but then again I know not much I say will change how you feel. Just try and think of it as, thoughts are thoughts.. Just because they are there does NOT mean there true.. And also, not everyone sees you the way you see yourself..
If you feel bad about lying to people, maybe you could try telling your close friends or something, but make sure you tell them exactly how you feel about it.. I know it wouldn't be easier, but atleas they'd be able to understand how hard things are for you..
You only FEEL like your going to fail, and maybe because your thinking that so much, you will.. Believe in yourself a bit more or even just tell yourself 'Yeah maybe I just might do ok..' If your putting the work in I don't see why not, your still trying your best and thats all that matters..
Don't give up, There is a chance that things will get better, your better to try for your whole life, because atleast you can ALWAYS say you tried your best and thats all that matters..

Calm down and think of all the good in your life. I'm kinda fat too. Try spending free time at the gym if you think it will help.

Just cause you're fat don't mean a thing. Mosrt men like em like that. You try looking like a palm tree all your life. You'd wish you had some meat on ya.

um is that a pic of u on profile if so u are so not fat....anyways the thing with enginereing fuck it if u cant do it then dont try something else.....everybody lets everybody else down....nomater who you are or what u do you will let somebody down....its how u make it up that matters

You aren't fat. In fact, you look rather anorexic to me. I don't guess you're bulimic (sp?) because you don't fit the type - you ever been abused?

lol yes i have/am being abused-

sorry i haven't been on for a long time

You are pretty though.

i do engineering. i can help if u want any...just msg.

thanks,

i swear i am just going to leave school at 16 if i don't get a*