This year I have gone through a lot more than I was used to.

I am just a 17 year old Junior in highschool.


I'll sum up what has gone on this year the best I can:

My oldest sister (41 - yes, blood related) got cancer in her leg. She almost needed it amputated and I wasn't even able to see her since she lives on the other side of the globe. So far it seems stable (now) but we are still concerned...

My other older sister (19) got into some "online romance" with some guy that she met online who lives over 2000 miles away. -he is 37 years old too -(18 year age difference) and she flew down (snuck out overnight just leaving a note behind for my mom and I) to see his as well as slept with him, and all she does now is talk to him. That was a few months ago - and it has continued.

But now within the last 2 weeks she snuck out AGAIN and did the same thing...

She lied to my face as well as my mothers that she wouldn't go down there, both before she went the first time and now. She broke my heart, and it hurt me greatly. ♥


Also, in August (inbetween all this) I had to get reconstructive jaw surgery to prevent health problems in the future. As I have no real friends (other than basic "hello's" in school), no one came to visit me while I was in recovery for a few weeks. - Which made me feel very alone. ---> recovery was hard and painful. I couldn't sleep for more than a few hours at a time and during the first night I threw up blood 3 times.


Lastly, because of all this - during the first trimester of the school year my grades suffered greatly. I got a 2.2gpa. I passed all my classes, thank heaven. A,B,B,C,C-, & D. But I was doing the best I could at the time. I missed about 20 days of school too.




Anyways...

Ever since my sister flew back down to see the guy, I noticed that I am quickly slipping into the -deep depression- again. (as I was never fully out of it, but I was starting to manage it)....

I am trying to cope, but I just can't. I tried zoning out, joining a club, reading again - but nothing. Ever since she went back down... I can't seem to manage anymore.

Help me please. Comfort. Advice? Anything.

Does your sister know that her doing that is bothering you? Maybe you should talk to her if you can, but I understand that can be difficult. If you need anyone to just rant to, then you can pm me. I have depression as well, so I can kind of understand what you are going through. I hope things turn out well. At least you passed your classes, that's nice.

I have talked to her many times. She didn't change anything knowing how I feel about it.

Have you discussed this with your parents?

My mother knows, and I have talk to her about these things all the time.

My dad doesn't know though. If he did, hell would break loose. I know my parents would get into it and get a divorce (mom even said so).

No way my dad could handle that stress on top of work and health problems and still come out as "one happy family". I wish otherwise, but that much is certain.

Wow thats quite a story you have there, i take it your sister leaving you
is whats' bothering you the most out of all thats' gone on

When it comes right down to it, I believe that is true.

She broke my heart, and lied to my face many times doing so.


I can't open up anymore to anyone, nor trust anyone either...

Times get tough in life at one point or another, but how you deal with those times makes you stronger. It'll be hard to trust other people now, I understand, but you've got to try to push your way through.

It's nice to hear that you want your family to be together and happy. Keep that up because when I gave up on mine everything got worse.

Thank you.

Listen, how is your over all health status as of today, i may have a small task for you, if your up to it? This has helped many others in the past
go to my pm box to see what i had in mind for you. And please do not worry its' nothin creapy just a suggestion.