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No one seems to believe me, that this actually happened. I'm being completely honest. You see, I'm a sixteen year old guy (soon to be seventeen) who is into S&M. If you don't know what that is, you probably shouldn't look it up. If you do know what it is, then you know that there are subs, and there are dominants. I am a sub, and enjoy being ordered around and humiliated by women. Don't ask why, because I couldn't give you an answer. Anyhow, I go on these websites and lie about my age (saying I'm 18) and then look for dommes to boss me around. Anyhow, I was on webcam with this one sexy domme, and she told me to get my mom's underwear. I was going to do it, but my mom was in her room, so I went into my sister's room and got hers, figuring the domme wouldn't know the difference. The domme then told me to put them in my mouth, which I did. Anyway, the main point of this is: I put my sister's underwear in my mouth and truly regret it. I want to kill myself. This was five weeks ago, and I still can't get over it. What the hell should I do?
As unhelpful as this sounds, there's not a lot you can do I'm afraid apart from to try and put it behind you and move on from it. Everyone goes through life making mistakes and regretting the decisions we make and things we do put it's part of growing up, part of learning, part of life. I'm assuming that this is something you don't really want anyone (such as you family or close friends) knowing about so I suggest that you write everything down.
You can do it as a letter to someone if you want or just write to no one but write down all your thoughts and feelings about from what it was like when you were doing it and what it feels like now. This will help you clear your head and organise your thoughts. After you've written it, you can do whatever you want with it. You can give it to someone if you want to or keep it safe somewhere. Some people I know like to rip the paper up or to burn it which is like setting those emotions free really. Writing like this is great for dealing with things that you either don't want to or can't talk to someone about.
I'm sorry I can't help more and I hope that if you do try this, it helps you.
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As unhelpful as this sounds, there's not a lot you can do I'm afraid apart from to try and put it behind you and move on from it. Everyone goes through life making mistakes and regretting the decisions we make and things we do put it's part of growing up, part of learning, part of life. I'm assuming that this is something you don't really want anyone (such as you family or close friends) knowing about so I suggest that you write everything down.
You can do it as a letter to someone if you want or just write to no one but write down all your thoughts and feelings about from what it was like when you were doing it and what it feels like now. This will help you clear your head and organize your thoughts. After you've written it, you can do whatever you want with it. You can give it to someone if you want to or keep it safe somewhere. Some people I know like to rip the paper up or to burn it which is like setting those emotions free really. Writing like this is great for dealing with things that you either don't want to or can't talk to someone about.
I'm sorry I can't help more and I hope that if you do try this, it helps you.
I can't believe how well written this is! All of your posts don't just have sentences like some of mine lol but full paragraphs! OMG! Your a great writer!
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First off, stop breaking the law.
Second, what you did was wrong but that's no reason to wanna kill yourself.
Regret would be normal in the situation, but suicide? No.
Believe me when I say, you're not the only one to do this.
It's fetish, that's it. However, you would be wise to restrain yourself from it until 18.
You made a mistake, it happens. The thing is, you shouldn't do it again - so don't do it again.
Just chill man, shit happens, so learn from it.
Also, S&M is Sadism and Masochism or Sadomasochism.
I am a Masochist, I know this and accept it. However, as a 17 year old, I quite obviously don't go seeking out people to help enact my twisted fantasies.
Why? Because it's stupid, not to mention illegal.
My point here is, you regret it - that's good, I'd be worried if you didn't.
Now you should restrain yourself from doing it again.
With Your Sliced Throat, Call Me Your Queen
Both the Dream-like Aching of My Wounds and the Severe Dripping of My Blood How Much More Time Until the Thoughtless Little Boys Become Men? The Eyes of Lust and Sadism Look Sadly at the Valley of Ecstasy, The Reflection of Happiness
An Explosion from the Core of My Body! It's at the Summit; There is no Escape! How Much More Time Until the Stupid Little Girls Become Women? With Your Cute Voice; Cry Out to Me, Your Elder Sister [erepublik.com]
And it would be the same with putting your mothers underwear in your mouth.
You regret it, that's perfectly fine.
Mistakes happen.
With Your Sliced Throat, Call Me Your Queen
Both the Dream-like Aching of My Wounds and the Severe Dripping of My Blood How Much More Time Until the Thoughtless Little Boys Become Men? The Eyes of Lust and Sadism Look Sadly at the Valley of Ecstasy, The Reflection of Happiness
An Explosion from the Core of My Body! It's at the Summit; There is no Escape! How Much More Time Until the Stupid Little Girls Become Women? With Your Cute Voice; Cry Out to Me, Your Elder Sister [erepublik.com]
People do a lot of things in life that they will regret but you just need to move on from that and keep your head up. You do not want your life to end over something so small when you can just forget it ever happened and move on.