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Alright, so I'm not entirely sure if this is the appropriate forum. As I'm not suicidal or depressed. However, it has to do about both, and this thread deals with both... so I figured I'd put it here?


Anyways, some of you know and other's don't.... A few months ago someone I knew and who was rather close to my family committed suicide.

Ever since then I've gone through periods of not being able to sleep, of not being able to concentrate on school-work, not able to find the point in life, and not able to get death off of my mind.

So, that was where I was at about a month - month and a half ago. In the thick of it all, I decided (along with some advice from friends) that I needed to see the counselor that my school has. After spending about an hour and a half session with the counselor, things got a little bit worse and then started to gradually get better.

It finally got to the point where I could go about life and have it completely removed from my mind and find the joy in life again.

Until recently. I don't know what it is, the only difference now is that I'm under a lot of stress that I normally am not under. But, the other day I was reading my news-feed on Facebook and read that someone I knew had passed away.

It brought back all of the thoughts about the suicide and of mortality... of my own mortality. I honestly couldn't fall asleep that night, I spent a good two hours just tossing and turning trying to distract myself with something that wasn't about death.

When I'm in that mindset, I start seeing image in my head of the people I love and care most for in their caskets and I even see myself in a casket... I can't get these thoughts out of my head.

I'm not suicidal and I haven't self harmed in years....

I dunno, I don't know what I'm looking for here. But I needed a venue to get this off of my mind.


Oi

Hey man.

Really sorry about your losses. I lost my best friend a few years
ago and I know how it feels.

For me the best thing to get my mind off things was by keeping
myself occupied. Playing computer games, playing sport but what
worked best was hanging with my friends and having a good time.

Talking about it whether with family or friends also helped me a
lot. Remember you should NEVER forget the good times you've
had with these people and sharing these good times with others
can be a good way to do so.

All the best man
xo