25-01-12, 10:14 AM
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Breathe...exhale the hurt
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Name: Kate
Gender: Female
Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 9,772
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Re: I opened the door.
This is always a tricky thing because we never really can ever go back to how something was, it's like a photograph. That picture taken in that place, in that way, at that second, with that lighting, etc. That place in time will NEVER come again, ever. So in a way that's how our minds work as well, once we know something we cannot undo it. So, what we have to do here now is build another door, put another door up. we have to accept the difference in this door, accept it's not the same, but it will help. In your mind build thing door with a stronger material, have it be more secure and harder. Fight those feelings/that side hard. Tell yourself your need door and block/wall towards the thing is harder. Just block out what you want to block, or be on the side you want to be and ignore the door and the things changed. Over time, you'll learn to come accustom to these changes and it'll seem like the "normal" like before did. Depending on the subject, it's hard. very hard to see things differently but it is possible to take away that hurt or scared feeling of things being different. Find something else to hold onto. Find a sense of new security and try and ignore the thing on the other side of the door. Even if it's like with a person, you can see/talk to the person but ignore and don't allow yourself to think of the feelings that was once there with that person.
Not sure that helped any, but best I could do with vague. Please know you can IM me on MSN any time and give me more information and maybe can help more.
Little white flowers will never awaken you, not when the cold depths have all but overtaken you.

Dearest, The days are all so long,
and in the shadows I spend them all.
My heart and I long for slumber.
Slumber I'm caressing you, I bless your touch, I lust for you.
Slumber you are not a dream, Not as much as you seem.
- Joao <3
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