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I know I'm new here so I don't know if anyone will even read this. That's okay though.

So basically, I'm sad everyday. That's nothing new, I've been like this since I was like, 10. But at night it gets worse and I start to dwell on the fact that I don't have any friends. And I mean I that I don't have ANY friends that I feel comfortable with, not that I have a few friends. I have nobody. And I hate when strangers tell me it'll get better and that "it's okay." Because it won't get better and it's so fucking not okay. And I want to die so badly, every second thought I have.

But I have this dumb ass fucking fear about the afterlife and whether it exists. And that fear is the only thing keeping me alive and I'm trying so hard to get over it.
Even my Grandma said "I'm not going to tell you not to do it, people who commit suicide piss me off."

It's maybe time to let go for real. For real, for real.

Dont commit suicide. You will find your purpose in life if you keep searching. People really do love you now and many many more will in the future. Trust me. Dont ruin it for them. I'm sure it is difficult but one can always find ways to get better, like just tread water and stay busy till you do find your place in life. If it's like chemical depression then you need to go to the doctor and take anti-depressants.

Are you still in high school or in college or working or what?

I really, really have no goals. I'm in grade 12 and I have no goals besides graduating. I'm on disability because I have some mental illnesses that currently prevent me from working. I can't be on anti-depressants as they have negative physical effects on me. I have terrible relationships with 98% of my family after coming out as transgender.

I'm going nowhere. The only things keeping me alive are this fear and a certain band.

But that's a goal, right? Take things one step at a time. Just don't kill yourself yet. You haven't given life enough of a chance yet. You're only in grade 12. Don't let you're current situation deter you. Life can and probably will get better if you keep trying. If you don't have friends but you want friends, then make it a goal to make some. If you haven't already, consider CBT or something like that. There must be something that you enjoy doing. If you don't have anything you enjoy doing, make it a goal to find something that you enjoy doing. I know what you're going . I can't take anti-depressants either. And I can tell you that nothing will get any better unless you're determined to make it better yourself. Just set a few goals, go after them, and enjoy life the best you can.

Like Allan said, one or just a few goals is enough. And time will give you more goals.

And surely you must see why it would be difficult for your family that you have become transgender ... they have seen you one way for so long only to have that be completely reversed and 180'ed. Of course they need to help you since it must be difficult for you two. Just give them a lil more time to get used to it.

I don't know what country you're from, but I have a (online) friend who's transgender. She (Currently physically a boy) lives in Holland and they had a great program which helped her for a few months, and now she's much happier.

She also didn't have any irl friends and her Dad hates her because of wanting to change, but she has online friends, which are just as good as any.

Anyways, if you want someone to talk to, don't hesitate to message me, I'll be glad to help.

Sorry for not addressing the other problems, but I don't really know anything about them subjects.

hey, i may sound like a young chick babbling on about life, cause im younger than you/... but honestly, suicide is not the answer. and it DOES get better. It got better for me.. i was like you last year, i really wanted to commit suicide and when my mom decided to move out, i almost did. But I took a step back and thought of everyone i would be hurting. I thought of all the years in life ahead of me. Of course, i still have struggles sometimes and i feel depressive at times, but i learn to overcome these struggles. Stay strong.. you're worth it <3

Mmm I really understand it when you don't have ANY friends that you feel comfortable with, not that you have a few friends.--- I was like that too ,butnow its a lil bit better

LIVE LIFE!!!! c'est la vie mais tu as à vivre. You have lo live life no matter what people think and you'll find the group of people that want to be with you and you'll fill comfortable around them.