Originally Posted by ~Lili~
Well it seems you are being quite selfish, no offense but your just thinking of yourself and your own pain. The physical pain is nothing to the emotional/mental pain you'd leave behind, but I'm guessing you don't care atall... If your in so much pain why would you ask for a painless way? I find that odd.. I'm not sure what your looking for from posting this, but people aren't exactly gonna give you ideas on how to top yourself..
Lili, you took the words right out of my mouth.
Look, death is a painful thing. It's the taking of a life, of course it's going to be painful.
I have a few incurable illnesses that cause me tremendous body pain.
Yeah, so does my aunt, cousin, grandmother, great uncle, great aunt, my other aunt, my other cousin, my other cousin, and I'm getting screwed by both half of my genetics because I have double of what they have!
I'm in and out of the doctor's office a lot.
I have to have expensive medication. I'm in pain 24/7.
I have things I'm gonna have to live with for the rest of my life, things that will cause me more pain as I get older.
And yet I'm still going strong even after being told many times that my doctor's haven't ever seen anyone like me before.
But then again, they could be talking about my body not being able to take pain induced by my body but that I'm able to take many forms of physical pain.
I don't like to share this but there were times when I considered, long and hard, to end my life.
But then I started thinking about my family and how selfish I was being - hell, my whole family is sick and I'm one of the worst out of them, there are times when they just wanna die too.
But everyone keeps going because those worse off than them can keep going.
Even if you are in pain, that doesn't mean a thing.
it hurts when i go to bed, the pain wakes me up in the middle of the night, everything hurts immediately when i wake up and all day. The pain is so bad in my legs at times i seriously consider chopping my legs off to stop it (that should tell you how bad the pain is that i would take amputation over what i have to deal with). I just want to end it. there is only so much pain a person can live through and still be sane and whole by the end. Added on to the pain is all the other crappy symptoms that come with the illness: headaches, extreme fatigue, no sleep, etc...
You too? Wow, this is kinda creepy now.
Yeah, I remember back before I got medication... I'd fall and almost break something because of my legs. Also it's triggered by emotion, if I feel too much, I fall.
Yeah, those symptoms suck ass... I've been dealing with it for 17 years, because my symptoms first showed up when I hasn't even a year old! On top of that, I was yelled at, slapped once, spanked, and abused (by classmates) because of it.
Because they all thought I was faking... But when I was 15, I finally proved all those bastards wrong~
My point is that you lack in Will Power. Which is funny because you have intelligence potential. You quite clearly know what you want and you refuse to take shit. Why waste such good potential? Oh and you should consider pain as a good thing because going through pain makes us stronger. And generally things are balanced. Stud athletes tend to be pretty damn stupid, right? Where as total Nerds tend to be more weak or frail.
And if you are blessed Twice then you'll suffer an even worse fate.
This is where the saying "stupid people can't die" comes into play.
I look at it like this:
You have intelligence or physical stamina. If you have both, you die sooner. If you have neither then you'll live longer.
Sometimes a frail body and pain is a good thing for the mind. It teaches us to learn how to think under painful situations, we become more critical thinkers that way.
And too be honest, with that sort of aspect, I'm surprised you don't know this.
Question... Do you know what you have? If so, what?
What kind of doctors have you gone to?
I've been to all sorts as well. I got an MRI and when it came up clear, it was assured I was faking.
Until I had an EEG done and then showed I had something wrong with me.
Oh, and then my stomach got all messed up and still no one know's what's wrong!
But I have enough mental will power to keep on trying. I'm not some little sheep who's just gonna lay down and die.
And finally, Lili is totally right about it's not like anyone is gonna give you any ideas... Because really, they'd be dead by now if they knew.
Which confuses me to some extent, you should know that this is a Help Forum - we help with problems, we don't help to kill yourself.
Besides, you realize that IF we did give you idea's that we could all be charged with Assisted Suicide (or some time of Homicide), right?
Internationally speaking, that would cause a lot of bad blood. Believe me, that's not something we want to get into.