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So yeah, share stories about your first(or most memorable) gay crush here. ^w^
My first crush on another guy was in my sophomore year. He was my best male friend and a senior. He was like a big brother figure, sometimes he would walk me to my grandma's house. once he even turned down a ride home with his gf to walk with me. I normally walk with my head down, but sometimes when I looked up I would catch his gaze and when we made eye contact he would look away, and that made me smile inwardly, because I found it funny. I was rather fond of him I suppose.
Then I realized that he was banal, narrow minded, and genuinely uninteresting. He liked to avoid deep intellectual topics just because he didn't enjoy think. I may sound cold, but meh.
Do mostly platonic crushes count? Well, romantic-platonic I suppose.
So this girl was in-between schools back when I was in the 9th grade. We were the same age I believe. Everyone always used to say "If it wasn't for her being so short and that long hair, I'd swear she was a guy!" because she had long, pretty, soft brown hair. I liked to touch it. A lot.
But anyway, my best friend was the first to meet her and she introduced her to the whole group. I was not very talkative at first but eventually I opened up a bit more to her and before I knew it she attached herself to me like glue every morning when we all met up. And took naps on me, either on my lap or on my chest, sometimes she'd crawl onto my lap and just curl up onto me and fall right asleep.
Yeah, well, people got the wrong impression and jumped to conclusions.
Once that happened though, I started getting harassed by people less but before that I actually started enjoying her affection for me. However, I come to find out my best friend has taken a not-so-wholesome interest in her! I had an extremely unfamiliar feeling of a caliber I had never experienced before. I believe most people call it "jealousy".
So then me and my friend got into a fight over her... hilarity totally ensued during and after.
We started bickering over who deserved her more. My argument was that she "gets everybody she wants, male or female, so just let me have her" and her argument was "I found her first".
Her response, in hindsight, was epic. It was "Ladies, please, there's more than enough of me to go around!"
Then she says... "You guys know I have a boyfriend, right? I mean it's cool if you're both into me but I'm taken."
Both me and my friend were confused at first but responded with "So?" but in totally different contexts. Again, her's was much less wholesome. Mine was more of an Asexual crush and I was perfectly fine having her as a cuddle buddy.
But the reason I was crushing on her in the first place was because she's technically the first person I told about my Asexuality. But I didn't know the name for it at the time. There I was at that time thinking I was some sort of freak, given who I hung out with and everything, but she didn't hesitate to accept me just as I am and she hadn't even known me that long! Not to mention there was just something about her, I got such warm, positive, trusting vibes from her from the second I met her. Which is a quality I happen to look for, it's not something I find often and she was my first interaction with someone like that. At least, from what I remember.
So, yeah... it also didn't help that she was just so fucking adorable, had a slight Mexican accent (she looked White but I believe she was half-Hispanic), and dressed like a boy. I believe she wore her brothers and boyfriends clothing. It only made her more adorable! And, there was this one time I punched this guy who insulted either me, my sister, or my dad, but I sent him flying... but I hurt my fist so she helped me take care of that. And she was the only one who wasn't afraid of me after I did that too! All our friends were in shock but she wasn't.
Years later, not that long ago, I ran into her again. She cut her hair, still dressed in baggy clothing but they were meant for a female, she got a heck of a lot taller - she was almost as tall as me now (and that's not saying much, I'm only 5' 4"). Overall she was far more feminine so that boyish charm she had before was gone.
It stung, however, she didn't remember me at first. Not until I reminded her about the naps she decided to take on my boobs. Then she remembered! But only after a while... I would have demonstrated, but she had drinks in her hands and we were in a pizza place.
But she really didn't remember much else about me. Talk about a stab in the heart. Not that I still had that crush or anything but geez it stings when someone you liked doesn't remember you!
That being said, I'm not sure if this counts for two reasons. One, it was a platonic semi-romantic Asexual crush. Two, part of the reason was for her boyish qualities. She was very much a tomboy back then. And there was one other thing as well, perhaps she was just trying to comfort me or relate but she said she never really felt attracted to either gender either. So that also probably had something to do with it. But I already started crushing on her before I knew that.
Sorry this was so long. Ugh, Cathy, you tease me for so long and then you don't even remember me! But on the upside, she didn't remember my best friend at all! I was so pleased to hear that~
But she remember my other friend who was there with me at the time... but he's really hard to forget.
So yeah, that was my first girl crush. Did I mention she always smelled nice too? And her hair! Why'd she have to go and chop it all off?! It was such lovely Rapunzel hair! *headdesk*
Why yes, I'm perfectly aware I'm pathetic. Digging around in events during my school life usually result in that... but, hands down. she was the best thing that ever happened to me in school. Even if she didn't feel the same for me, and I wouldn't have had it any other way, she still picked me to be her favorite cuddle buddy over everyone else.
Cathy shall forever remain the second most powerful crush in my life, the second crush in my life, but the one who made the most impact in such a short amount of time. However, I'm not interested in girls. It was just Cathy and how she was. Hell, I thought she was a boy at first even. That soon got corrected.
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With some guy in my school. To make it short: I went a little crazy in believing he was gay and wondering why he was lying to himself but eventually realised he was straight.
When I was 14 I went through a bit of a phase thinking I was bisexual. I crushed on a girl for a bit but then after talking about it online and stuff I realised that it started to disgust me a little. The girl I liked was actually a lesbian and admitted she liked me but to be honest the thought of being with a girl repulsed me after a bit. Think my hormones were a bit crazy and I was incredibly lonely. I didnt have many friends then and hadnt had a "proper" relationship. Guyssss <3...Kirk<3333
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Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!"
A girl called Natalie, who was in my high school but she was two years older. I had the biggest crush on her and after Adam ended it with me, we dated for a bit. She was also the first girl I had a sexual experience with. We're still friends now.
On a random day, I woke up and walked to my mirror in the morning. I saw a guy on the mirror and I immediately crushed on him, he was just so very handsome.
Then I realized it was me, so I just danced.
Nah, I'm kidding. But, I don't remember my first guy crush.
"If I do good, people might accuse me of selfish, ulterior motives, but I will still do it. Because I believe no one is malicious, not in their core, in their raw being.
The best in them is clouded by sorrows and fears, take those away and you'll bring out the brightest of lights in them.
Because no one can be happy without being kind, without giving ourselves to another, and we all love to give ourselves, it is our true nature.
That is why, even if I might get disappointed, I'll always give the best I've got. A single candle can light a thousand others and still burn." - Skezra
Well, for me it was at the times when I rejected my sexuality, but it happened.
We were in a camp, in the same room, we had known each other before the camp, but our friendship deepened there by much, and I liked him very much - and I crushed on him (even if I rejected my feelings). Simply that.
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