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Okay so here it is: Most of my friends see me as a wimp because i never stand up or fight for myself(Actually, it's because I've always been non-violent). But recently, I've been undergoing some radical changes(I'm 14, and I'm pretty sure it's cause of puberty). I'm in more and more needs of THRILLS. The first thing that happened was me not liking video games anymore(Except multi player at my friend's house). All my friends say the same, but it's bullshit, they love gaming more than ever. I've been doing Parkour(Look it up on youtube if you want to know what it is). And I've been in need of new thrills everyday since now. The thing is: I live in Chicago. NOTHING to do without getting in MAJOR troubles. My friends are all pretty boring. They never take initiatives of their own, and we can never come up with as little as a "Le'ts go downtown this week-end" plan... I'm not saying I want to fuck up my life doing stupid shit like robbing a store. But I mean, i've never as much as JUST hung out with friends. We're still going to each other's house for video games.

OTHER THING. All the girls at my school are ugly as fuck... Or at least most of them. Then people keep saying shit like:"You don't have a girlfriend". Only one of my friends has a "pretty" girlfriend. All the rest like ugly girls. Hell... Some friends will take the fattest chicks just because of their breasts.

Chicago is a pretty boring city as far as I know.. Or at least the area where I live is... No theaters. it wouldn't bother me to go downtown, except all of my friends always cancel because they have "Plans" to go to some other friend's house... (Playing rock band...). They all keep telling themselves they have a life when they don't, some are so full of themselves everybody would punch them if they weren't nice and funny when they want to.

I would take a further steps and go do stuff like: Go camping, go to the suburbs and do random crap. But it's not that they don't want to, I'm pretty sure they would... But I have no money whatsoever.

Most of my friends are nice. Some of them are even EXTREMELY charitable. But most of them are boring.

The best thrill I've had tis year was when I broke my apartment complex window on accident when I was mad once, ran away to my friend's house cuz i didn't want to get busted, and took the bus to the skatepark. The only friend willing to go do something can be annoying sometimes, so he always wants to go to some place I CANNOT afford in any way.

Another thing is I want to go rave. Now, that's something one of my friends is willing to go do with me. I've always wanted to go to a real one, especially since I've been into techno music since I was 2 XD . We can both be very mature, so I think we could handle the "extras" that come with the scene... We might be able to attend one. We still have to figure out who could give us a ride back... GOOD.

The school is nearing to an end... Everything is very overwhelming. Sometimes i feel lack of oxygen as i search through my bookbag for an assignment =/ .

I really hate Chicago. I wish i lived in some place where i could get some kind of thrills... Here, the best thrill you can get is smoking some weed.... Not that great...

I'm not saying I'm prefect either. Sometimes I'll turn down plans... Sometimes I bitch about stuff. But still, I hate where i fucking live...


My rant for the day...

Always good to get it off your chest, good you know what's on your mind and how to express it.

I think you're right that a lot has changed at puberty, 14 is when a lot of it really hits guys. Mercifully, you're (and those friends of yours) are only 14 for one year, and things change then, too. So, you need a short term plan to deal with the physical challenges as well as the social ones.

Maybe you need two things here, one is a way to deal with the need for 'Thrills', maybe find an activity that satisfies that, one that's not illegal or dangerous, to get that out. The other is for you to maybe start branching out with new friends. People change a lot during adolescence, you're noticing that about yourself as wella s them, too. Maybe it would feel better to make those new friends, get involved in diff activites to meet them. that would be 'thrilling' too, and it might get you some new contacts.