[MrJake]

So..
You think there is more to this god damn life?
More than name calling?
More than threats?
More than...this??
More than sitting here on a Saturday night because everyone thinks your ugly?
More than being called 'Tubs' at school?
More than not being able to run a mile efficiently?
More than this???
Is there more?
Honestly this is how I feel all the time, this is what happens to me, and it's really not cool. I try, I really do. Yeah I could go on a diet, but do you think I have money to go to the store and get the items I need for thus diet? No I don't. It's all my parents. They buy fatty ass shit and I have to eat something right? There isn't shit below 300 calories in my house..I ordered a vegetarian kit, but I doubt it will help...
Anyway..I wish I could just fucking disappear, cause I'm living in a world I don't understand. I can't make sense of it. I have no money to look better, or clean up better, or I would. Don't you think??? I don't have money for fancy axe deodorants, or gels, or anything like that.
We can barely afford to pay out employees at the business we run..One employee was driving a company vehicle DRUNK, crashed it, totaled it along with a BMW..Thank god only minor injuries, but now we have to pay around $70,000 dollars for the whole case here, plus the fact we're getting sued for HIS actions..
Fuck people..You think you got it hard? Think again..
I know I might sound really dumb and stupid here, but it's true..We're living pay check to pay check and this isn't helping much..

Well...that was my rant..:/

[David-]

Jake, what I'm going to say is something that I myself struggle with. So keep that in mind.

Life is what you make it. We can't choose the circumstances we're born into or for the most part what we're in. But we can control our perspective and our outlook with those situations. You're not happy with being home at your computer on Saturday nights. It is not beyond you to change that.

Truly, if you make the effort to make friends - your personal appearance won't matter much. True friendship is when we are interested in what lies underneath all of the armored walls, and we reach the understanding that the friendship is more important than the outwardly appearances. Or something like that.

My point: If you make the effort to make friends and hang out with them - you'll find yourself rewarded with accomplishing your goal. If you want to lose wait - and you have the will power - your families financial stability will not be such a big factor. It doesn't cost money to go on a walk every day.

You can't control the actions of others - but you can control the influence it has on you. Turn those words into motivation for yourself to better yourself.

[MrJake]

Thanks David.

[Ephemeral]

Well, Jake. What I'm going to say might sound a little cliche but there is truth to it. And maybe I'm wrong but I think it's definitely worth thinking about.

Is there more to life? it doesn't really matter much, to be honest. Life is all around you. What you see at any given moment is what life is. And there's not much you can do to change it. But don't focus on the ugly things life is showing you. Focus on the beautiful things. The happy things. The things that make life worth living. You might not see them right away but look for them and they're all around you. Revel in that experience. And that's the answer to suffering. Find the opposite in life. Every person and every thing has it's own beauty. That includes you. You have beautiful aspects to you I'm sure. How do I know? because you're human. Humanity has many beautiful things in it. Others will see that too. If they don't know, have some patience and you will see that someone will see it. Don't worry about the bad things life gives you. They will come and go. But the beautiful things will last for a long time. All you have to do is find them.

[MrJake]

Thanks Allan