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I want to start off by saying sorry for not being around lately. I don't know on what level I've been bored of this place, be it that I can't find my place here, or that my generalized anxiety disorder which is setting off my depression is causing this perpetual boredom. I'm thinking the second option, because of how my mind feels, which I'm having trouble describing, but it's probably a little bit of both.

Now, on to the main rant. My anxiety is currently dictating my life. I can't think. I can't sleep. I can't wake up in the morning. I barely want to eat. I never want to move. My heart races. The throat swells. Most importantly I can't think. It took me all summer to realize how I feel and why I feel this way. There's just so much shit in my life, it's like looking for a book in a garage full of boxes, and I'm just not in the mood to look.

But yeah. It just came back to me that I actually have a diagnosis. My psychiatrist labeled me with generalized anxiety disorder months ago, and for months I've had the option to say I want medication, and just never did. I said I had a bad time with medication previously, but a year later, I'm not going to confirm that. I believe I was just having a bad time while on medication. There's a lot of ups and downs involved, but considering how I feel now, I believe the gain will outweigh the loss.

I was actually supposed to see my therapist today, but she was sick. That frustrates me, but at least I know now that medication isn't just a silly idea for me. I really want this. I'm excited to hopefully get better and enjoy my grade 12 year. I'll keep everyone posted and hopefully get in action on here soon, but no one is to say for certain!

I hope everything works out and you're able to get the medication, Matt. You're always welcome here and I hope to get to know you better.

Good luck dude.

"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love."
- Washington Irving

Good luck! I really hope everything goes well :)

Good luck, I hope it goes well for you.

Michael~

*Much hugs*

I believe you have strength within you to get to where you feel you should be. Might not be much but I'll be supporting you in my mind, cheering you on and hoping for you, and I'm sure many others are. ^^

Good luck, Matt. <3

My appointment is rescheduled for the afternoon after the first day of school. I feel like the timing is perfect. Maybe, just maybe, my whole life has been leading up to this, because I feel 100% ready to face everything, and I feel that I have the power (even though I might not without medicine) to do anything.

COME AT ME, WORLD ;D

I don't believe that medication is the answer to your problems (anxiety problems), because anxiety is a state of mind, and you are in control of that if you wanted to be. You could change that easily without medication, it would just take some patience. Though I'm sure you are going to say that you have dealt with this for years and are certain there is no other way. So with that I will wish you good luck and hope that you are able to settle down soon.

Every line on your face
Makes a beautiful maze
For my eyes to trace~

I understand exactly where you're coming from, but look into mental illnesses, such as generalized anxiety disorder. These mental disorders change the chemical production in the brain. It would be like giving you a half a plate of food at every meal. You could get used to it, but you'll never have as much energy as you would if you ate right. And that's what medication corrects. I may or may not change your mind, but I know what I'm talking about, and medication is right for me.

I hope everything will work out for you . I know everything will be okay!