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"It's just one of those days when you don't wanna wake up.
Everything's fucked.
Everybody sucks.
You don't really know why
But want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
It's just one of those days!!"
Those are the lyrics by Limp Bizkit which describe my mood today. YES, the positive, happy chappy, supportive John feels like just breaking down, breaking everything and just scream. I feel like killing someone.
Just to start off the day, I woke up with my throat hurting like a whiney bitch. I couldn't stop coughing, and the illness makes me so tired all the time for no reason at all!
But hell, that doesn't upset me that much. Little things are just that, little things. The real problem, which everyone who talks to me alredy knows, is my PATHETIC excuse for a father. YES, he is the source of most of the negativity in my life at the moment! It's such a long story I can't even explain. So, I'm going to stick to explaining what he did today.
I have been looking for a job for ages now, and it's being hard because in Portugal you need to be 18 for pratically... Anything! But that didn't bring me down, I just keep on trying. Yesterday I found online a really good job offer, which was to interview tourists around Lisbon in English.
Seeing as my English clearly sucks, I'm not fit for this job. /sarcasm
So I was sending an email to show inform them that I'm interested. I'm very dedicated and professional when handling things outside my personal life, so I was writing my email professionally. I like to show I'm not some illiterate idiot who didn't pass 4th grade. As I was writing my list of aptitudes, my father kept laughing, with comments such as "You? Good at that? Hilarious hahahahah" making me feel super unconfortable, and at the same time, wanting to punch him. But no, as always, I just stay quiet and ignore. It's not like I can do anything else anyway.
And as I writing the email, he kept erasing what I wrote and writing something in its place. What he wrote was completely unprofessional and ridiculous... And he still forced me to sent it. The person who receives the email will probably laugh at it and reject me. Thanks dad, thanks for ruining my potential chance at a job when I desperately need the money.
Oh, but it doesn't end here. He also forced me to cut my hair today! My hair was good as it was, not short or long. It didn't give a lot of work and it didn't look bad at all, and he still made me cut it because in his opinion, it was ugly. Since my opinion doesn't matter, he cut my hair by force. Yes! Now my hair looks ridiculous and I'm about to exit to meet someone in a few minutes! Thanks dad.
You're the most wonderful dad I could ever ask for!
"If I do good, people might accuse me of selfish, ulterior motives, but I will still do it. Because I believe no one is malicious, not in their core, in their raw being.
The best in them is clouded by sorrows and fears, take those away and you'll bring out the brightest of lights in them.
Because no one can be happy without being kind, without giving ourselves to another, and we all love to give ourselves, it is our true nature.
That is why, even if I might get disappointed, I'll always give the best I've got. A single candle can light a thousand others and still burn." - Skezra
Meh. That's clearly upsetting... I'd be pissed off as well.
Well, I am! Your pretty hair, gone?! ;_;<3 *lends you some of mine, lmao* I hope you quickly overcome this. I also hope they accept you to do the job afterall.
Suddenly my eyes are open
Everything comes into focus, oh!
We are all illuminated,
Lights are shining on our faces
We are, we are blinded ! We are, we are blinded !
I'm sorry =/ just try and hang in there and move out when you can. hopefully the dickface will choke on his own spit or something and die in his sleep.
Little white flowers will never awaken you, not when the cold depths have all but overtaken you.
Dearest, The days are all so long,
and in the shadows I spend them all.
My heart and I long for slumber.
Slumber I'm caressing you, I bless your touch, I lust for you.
Slumber you are not a dream, Not as much as you seem.
- Joao <3
John, I feel for you, mate. I understand how Portugal is getting shafted economically, and how this job would have helped out. But for every door that closes, another opens. This is not the end of the line.
You'll find employment sooner then later. And your father, he will come around.
"A toothache, or a violent passion, is not necessarily diminished by our knowledge of its causes, its character, its importance or insignificance".- T.S. Eliot
Thanks for the posts guys. I'm actually feeling much better now. Going out made me feel a lot better.
I just hope things get better with time.
"If I do good, people might accuse me of selfish, ulterior motives, but I will still do it. Because I believe no one is malicious, not in their core, in their raw being.
The best in them is clouded by sorrows and fears, take those away and you'll bring out the brightest of lights in them.
Because no one can be happy without being kind, without giving ourselves to another, and we all love to give ourselves, it is our true nature.
That is why, even if I might get disappointed, I'll always give the best I've got. A single candle can light a thousand others and still burn." - Skezra
Today's Toppers
Fuck YOU and YOU and YOU and EVERYTHING.
