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Ugh, I'm so irritated with people lately. Everyone wonders why I stay in the house, stay in my room, stay in the computer room, why I hardly ever talk, why I "don't have a life", and every opportunity they get someone has to go and make a comment about it and make me feel like some kind of freak for it.

Introversion does not mean I'm shy. Shyness is more like nervousness or anxiety, where you want to join in but are too nervous to do so. An Introvert simply doesn't want to, doesn't feel like it.

I'm so fucking tired of people always ragging on me for it! Ever since I was a kid, people have given me nothing but shit over it! The only one who never pressured me to get into social situations was my dad - the only thing he ever pressured me to do was to get into a sport of some kind and it didn't even have to be a team sport that required a lot of interaction (that's why I did swimming, sure I talked to people but you can't make conversation with a mouth full of water).
But still, he was the only one who never pressured me to actually do anything, he always said "if she doesn't want to hang out with a bunch of idiots then why should we make her?" or "who cares if she doesn't wanna socialize with a bunch of idiots?" and basically was fine with me not interacting heavily with people so long as I didn't become a total shut-in.

My dad and I never saw the point in meaningless socializing. We'd rather keep to ourselves more than anything, that's why I've always preferred my dad's company to my mothers. She was always trying to get me to talk to other people and to stop being so "shy" and thought something was wrong with me my entire childhood just because I only had a few friends of whom I never talked to all that often.


And now that I'm older she thinks I'm an even bigger freak. I try to tell her being around others for too long totally drains me and she was all like "yeah, well, maintaining friendships is hard work" and that just pissed me off. I love my friends, they know this! They know I like being left alone and they respect that about me. Sure they tend to come over unannounced and hang out at my place to kill time before they go and meet up with their friends but that's fine with me and with them! I like them, I don't like their friends and their friends probably wouldn't like me. And I don't like parties, large groups of people, or karaoke.

Introverts only make up about 1/3 of the general population but about 60-75% of the gifted population. I'm just sick and tired of being treated like a freak because I prefer not to socialize. It makes me happy to be alone and not surrounded by people. Most people would see solitary confinement as a punishment but I would see it as a little slice of heaven (which is why I could never understand the punishment). Being able to read books, write, and draw in silence without interruption would be wonderful.


But no, people have to go and make me miserable. Funny thing is, I'm only miserable because people try to force their way of life on me. People wonder why I shut myself off from the outside world all of a sudden - it's because I got fed up! It was maddening! I couldn't take it anymore! No matter where I went or what I did people always treated me like I was disturbed or like I was going to go crazy and kill them all because I was quiet.

I like to think before I speak. I like peace and quiet. I do not like mindless chit-chat. I do not like to be interrupted when I'm in the middle of something creative. Being around people drains me of energy. I like to be alone with my thoughts.

I hate how people can't seem to understand this at all. I realize Extroversion is the norm because that's what most of society is and that's what society is based on. But I like reflection, not projection. I shouldn't be treated as a freak or forced into situations which make me totally unhappy all in the name of what is "normal". People think I'm unhappy but people think that I am because I don't interact with others. Quite the contrary, it's because I have to interact that I'm unhappy.

I enjoy seeing and talking to my friends but not for long periods of time. I don't like spending long periods of time with anyone, not even with family.


Actually, perhaps Introversion isn't correct. I show more Schizoid tendencies than anything else (although Introversion comes with that). But I do like to spend time with my friends, just not too much. I like going outside, just not when it's too bright, too cold, or too hot - so a cloudy day during spring or fall is good. Also when i go out it depends on where. I love the outdoors, it just depends where outdoors, but I love nature. More than anything I love getting away from it all, which is one reason why I love nature so much - but it depends on where. I mean my backyard isn't quite the same as, say, Yellowstone or Devils Tower if you get what I mean (two places where I'd love to go back to).

Ugh...

Then do you know what you do if people say hurtful or stupid comments?








No?

















You shoot their face off with a shotgun...

Or put an arrow in their knee

...If only.

'twas a simpler time when we could put an arrow in the knees of people