sorry this is so long
So the day started out great me and Random started the day at like 6:30am we walked/ran for a while we went to this really cool BMX track. (which btw is amazing it took 3 years to make with 1 guy and a shovel)
so walked around that climbed the trees we went to thing super pretty field with a big tree and meditated there for a while then we walked to this river and sat there for a while
so after this 7 or so miles of running and walking we went back home and we were sooo tired and sore i nearly fainted walking back we got there made a bunch of food got more energy and went in the back yard to rest a little and get a tan (you know you're in texas when in January you tan) us being are typical hippies were topless because it doesnt matter his aunt lives on the other side of the fence came over and said she had no problem but should put a shirt on because neighbors might see
then when we were back inside we crashed because we had been awake for like 24 hours i woke up to my mom banging on the door super pissed (here comes the down fall of the day) she was angry for me being topless and just over all angry besides that so i immediately felt super nauseous ran to the bathroom locked my self in and took a long shower then just sat in the tub cold for like an hour
so i have been feeling really sick for hours like on verge of puking

today me and my sister were going to switch for the weekend so i would be with my dad and her here i was packed and ready to leave just waiting for my mom to be ready and then i left my room to ask her when we were leaving guess fucking what
SHE LEFT WITH OUT ME i called her and she said she didnt realize i was coming
so started uncontrollably crying because i had been feeling crappy hadnt seen my dad in months which i left on a bad note so i really wanted to see him and nw i have to be around my sister for the entire weekend which will just drain me of any usefullness and make me really sick
and even worse every day this week has pretty much been as bad just without a good beginning
and i would have a group meeting this weekend but i know my mom will refuse to drive the 5 minute to get there


