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So I've once again been accused of being an Anti-Social freak (note: Not Asocial, which means not wanting to interact but Anti-Social which is more destructive or rebellious - in a nutshell) all being I'm Asexual.

Okay so I apparently have a very nasty habit of assuming people know what Google is and know how to use it. I tend to assume people actually bother to look into things like I do so that they can understand and further debate it. But maybe I just got spoiled after being around others who did the same thing for so long... ah well.

So anyway this is the second time I've been accused of assuming people know all about something. Okay, well... the first time that happened I admit i was coming off way too strong and it's not something someone would typically look up and would instead just stick to what they've been taught to believe. But, when faced with something unfamiliar, such as a sexuality, my first reaction is to look it up and my second reaction is to confirm my findings with whoever mentioned it to me.
People seem to have the inverse reaction of myself however. Which is really kind of silly. Google is much faster and would give a much better response.

But that's just a minor point of annoyance... I'll admit now, I gotta work on assuming people are like me in the sense they actually bother to put effort into understanding a topic they're debating. Maybe I just give people too much credit? Should I start dumbing down everything I say now because I hate talking down to people.

Anyway so I went on about something and in his reply he asked me "how do you interact with people" and "have you ever considered you may not be what is considered normal to other people". Of course, I had to actually laugh at that. If anything I point out I'm odd more than others do... and others point that out on a daily basis.

After that I forgot exactly what he said but he basically implied that because I'm Asexual I must also not have the ability to interact correctly in social situations. Just because I'm Asexual.

For me I don't interact correctly but I assure you that's mostly out of choice rather than ignorance like he is implying. I make the choice to fuck with people's minds by not conforming to moronic societal standards.


In the end though he went on about society and what is natural. Earlier I compared by means of ATTRACTION to a gay while trying to explain Asexuality that for me it is to him like how he doesn't need to have sex with a guy in order to know he doesn't like it or isn't attracted to him. And on the off-chance this guy ever did have sex with another guy, because I didn't know, I off-handedly mentioned having sex with animals as well. Like you don't need to have sex with a dog in order to know it's not for you.

But think of it this way... picture the one thing or person that would literally cause you to vomit if you had sex with them. Now imagine you're having sex with them. Your reaction is how I feel about everyone.

I don't see people in a sexual manor, I just see them as people. And I hate people treating me like I'm disturbed because of it.

On the note of my introversion, I've just never liked dealing with other people. I found it tiring and very boring to interact socially. I preferred reflection, not projection. I like thinking, not speaking. That's why I almost never actually speak, but why I write so much. I think about what I'm going to say before I say it and by the time I think of it the moment has passed and I just come off as slow.

Either way I preferred to be alone.

I get people are pack-oriented but I'm not. I never had a problem with myself or other people. My problems only came to exist because other people took issue with me and my nature.

Everyone always seems to wonder why I hate society and seem to hate humanity... well, that's because the source of all my problems stem from people who took issue with me. Sadly, those types of people make up 2/3 the population. I don't actually hate anyone, despite being misanthropic, it's just that I was hurt a lot by people who saw me as a freak all because I preferred to be alone.

But people insisted it was my fault others didn't like me. Maybe it was, but that's no excuse to hurt me. They accused me of not trying hard enough to interact or get to know anyone. And this gives them justification to beat me up?! So what, i like to be left alone and some little shits don't like that so they decide to gang up on me and that makes it okay?!
So you're saying my only option is misery? Because I'll never ever be happy interacting with other people, esp. when I'm being forced to. But I don't want to be hurt simply for being different either.

Everyone thinks that because I'm Asexual, Asocial, and an Introvert that I'm begging to be picked on, abused, some go as far as saying I should be raped, and that I deserve it just for being different.

People wonder why I don't like society? It's because everyone constantly blamed me for being bullied growing up. They blamed me for acting in a manor that made me happy, being by myself and not bothering, provoking, or messing with anyone.

You see, I'd be happy, so happy, if it was just me and a few close companions who were not starved for attention. If people just left me alone and didn't pester me about "getting out more" or "having a life" when I'm perfectly happy with living life as solitary as possible. Interaction would make me so unhappy, so miserable, I'd sooner kill myself than be subjected to such torture. If I were ever subjected to something like that, like how it used to be, I might just lose it for real this time and either seriously harm myself or someone else. Because I just can't take it!

You know how solitary confinement is considered a punishment? Well just reverse the whole thing with me. People crave being around others so solitary, being left on your own, would be maddening for most people. But for me being around others is maddening.

You can choose to look at this anyway you want. It's just a matter of perspective. Some will accuse me of being crazy of course, because people drive me mad. But I propose to you that the same people accusing me of such would go insane is socially isolated, which means they are totally reliant upon other people emotionally whereas I am not.
There's a good and bad side to both.

Still... my problems exist not because of how I am but because of how people choose to treat me, just for being different. If people respected my difference then I would be much more adjusted to society than I am now.

Oh, but I guess when people told me it was my fault they just expected me to believe it, huh? I never once believed that bullshit. I knew it wasn't my fault for how I was being treated. So, hey, I was intelligent enough to not buy into the lies people fed me growing up. I remember that from that point in time I knew I could never trust a damn thing anyone else ever said to me without looking into it myself first.

Ha, so once again it's because of people that I'm distrusting, paranoid, and why I don't believe anything anyone says.

Had people just left me alone I'm sure I wouldn't have been so alienated growing up. I would have maybe interacted with others a bit more because I wouldn't have a reason to distrust them so much. In other words, people mistreated me because of how I was, and the result of being mistreated just made me more Asocial, more Introverted, and now I'm Misanthropic.

You know it's a damn good thing I was so intelligent growing up or otherwise I might have believed those lies. I've seen what happens when kids get told shit like that. They think everything happening around them is their fault just because of something that was other peoples fault to begin with. People wonder why I hate people... it's because I actually take the time to sit back and observe others. You'd be surprised at just how horrible and sickening people truly are once you start paying attention.


Well anyway, in a roundabout way I'm saying it's stupid to assume I'm fucked up for being Asexual. Oh, I'm fucked up, but not from my own doing. No, you can blame the people forcing me to do things I'm uncomfortable with, people who threaten to rape me after finding out I'm Asexual, people who mock and torment me just for liking to be alone. Other people cause problems in my life... but I'm happy by my own doing.

I agree, most people are incredibly stupid.

I don't socialize with people, because I can't. I find it impossible to have a normal conversation with anyone. I can in the Internet, though. I don't have enough social skills. Then, I'm completely isolated, in front of the computer all day long.

Although in the Internet is easier to find interesting people, there's still a lot of stupid ones. So I basically know what you're talking about.

Nice text, by the way.

I would really like to write a longer answer, but I feel like my English is very limited. I don't know why, I just woke up like that.