So, typical cliche story.

I hurt so much because of this guy, we went out for a few months and we were happy together, we really were. Then he left me, alone and cold. This was back in December last year. He didn't even tell me why, he just said it didn't feel right anymore, but it never stopped feeling right for me.

I was depressed about it for ages, i still am, but he gave me so much hope around a month ago. He told me why he left me, he told me that it was because at the time, our relationship was getting in the way of some really important friendships. He confessed that he still loved me, and he asked me out again. I was so, so happy. But then, he apparently changed his mind, only three days later, and so screwed me over, again.

I want to hate him so badly, but no matter what I do, I can't stop loving him, wanting him, needing him. We're still kinda friends now, but it's awkward, and nothing like what we used to have, nothing so beautiful...

Cliche I know, but, it's driving me crazy.
I just needed to rant.

Thank you

Hi Amy,

I'm really sorry your relationship didn't work out for you, it always hurts when the other person has different feelings , and they end things. It wasn't your decision, and you had no say in the matter, so there's a real sense of loss here, almost like an abandonment.

It takes time to heal from these things, and the feelings you had/have for him don't change b/c he's not in your life. It takes time to put them into perspective and move on, and until then, you'll likely pine away for him. It's part of the grieving process.

Be nice to yourself, lots of extra TLC, make sure you get support from your friends and others who care about you, and with time, you'll find that the part of you that was able to attach to *Him* will reflexively respond to the next lucky chap.

Until then, treat this as you would any other injury.

I'm really sorry that you lost someone so special to you. I know how it feels. I had my first love when I was 16; he took my virginity & I took his; we were dating for three months and he broke up with me because his step-mom wanted him to.
It was shitty, and I didn't get over it until I was about 18. It's going to hurt, and you're still going to love him. But you have to realize that you deserve so much more than being hurt. As I've seen someone say before...
"Screw all the fish in the sea. Look for your shark." :]
I hope I helped a little.

Thanks to both of you
You kinda helped put things into perspective.

Sam, you're right, I suppose this is just like any other injury, an extra painful one.
I just hope I move on ASAP.

And Amber, that quote actually brought a smile to my face, thank you
I'm sorry about your own situation with your first love, but at least you seem to have found your shark judging by the picture