25-10-11, 09:04 PM
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Gender: Female
Join Date: Oct 2011
Posts: 1
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what should I do? I like my bestfriend.
I'm 14. I've been attracted to girls before, but not emotionally. now I am.
a couple months ago, when school started, I was depressed. I felt very alone and I got a lot of anxiety. I didn't have any very good friends..
then I met Lexi and things got better. we became really good friends really fast, which was weird because both of us usually take forever to feel comfortable around people. she basically spilled her guts to me within a week of our friendship. she's a cutter, she's tried to kill herself, and she's bi. she said its weird she told me because she's only told her best friend who she's known for years and that it usually takes forever to trust people but she just did with me.
I've gotten her to stop cutting. I'm the only person who's been able to. she's happy now too. she says it's because of me that she's so much better.
things are just so easy around her. I'm so happy. we're together all day, and then 5 minutes after we separate I miss her so much and we text until one of us falls asleep.
me falling for her didn't just happen immediately. I've never liked a girl before... but she just makes me feel so good. I always want to be with her.
last week she spent the night and we were just laying in bed laughing and talking. I woke up in the middle of the night and our faces were like 5 inches apart. I wanted to kiss her SO much..but I didn't. I was scared. I ended up snuggling my face into her arm, and when we woke up the next time I was still like that but she was closer than before.
but I'm scared that if I tell her how I feel and she doesn't feel the same it will ruin the friendship. and that would be horrible for both of us. we need each other. and then if we get together and breakup who's gonna stop her from cutting? and my mom is totally against me being bi. she'd hate me. I don't know what to do..
Last edited by KeepItUgly; 25-10-11 at 09:12 PM..
Reason: it keeps cutting it off...
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