28-11-11, 10:57 AM
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Age: 18
Gender: Female
Join Date: Nov 2011
Posts: 1
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where do i go from here?
so im completely smitten with this lad. Hes completely perfect in my eyes ( i know that seems ridiculus and such a cliche but tome, he is!).
so let me start from the begining. This probably started about 4/5 years ago, it was a saturday and id just been to the watch the footie. after the game i went into the pub with my dad and his mates, were i seen him. He was playing the fruti machine in the corner of the room. He was tall, dark haired, brown eyes wearing jeans and an oversized black leather bomber jacket. unfortunately i had to go before i had the chance to talk to him, however from that day the feelings i have for him have only intesified when ive seen him. ( i should probably mention that he is my dad's best mates stepson and that he is about 4 years older than me hes 20 im nearly 17).
About a year or so ago i seen him when i whent to watch the world cup match at the pub. This time, i couldn't take my eyes off of him. i whent to play pool with my brother and when it seemed everytime i glanced up he was looking over towards me ( theres is nothing else near the pool table except a blank wall). When i got back to the table, we ended up having debate about something contrevertial but i felt like we sort of connected ( i am aware i sound like a complete prat but its how i felt), later on he also brought me a drink and came and sat by me.
so the most recent meeting was about 4 months ago, it was at his step uncles wedding, and wow did he look good! ever since seeing him that night i cannot shake him out of my head. except this time, it felt like my whole world was about to come crashing down when his mum told me what he was doing. About a 2 months ago, he left for his army training and its like something missing.
i geniunely have never felt something like this before, its like theres something not quite right with me i feel sad knowing hes not here!
i have had people asking me out, but i have to say no because the feelings i have for him are so strong that in my eyes there is nobody else, but i know me and him will never be as im too scared to telll him how i feel as i dont cope well with rejection.
so has anyone got any advice or suggestions as to what i should do, i cant carry on like this.. its too painful for me :/
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