13-02-12, 11:25 PM
Name: Shawn K.
Join Date: Feb 2012
If you really knew me....
I found this thread on the last teen site I joined. So it is not an original idea. I can't find a similar one here, so thought I'd start one.
It's simple: Complete the sentence, "If you really knew me..."
This is an edited version of the one I posted there.
If You Really Knew Me:
You'd know that even though I look like a kid that has everything, not a day goes by that I don't think I don't deserve it. Any of it.
You'd know that I still don't know how to feel, how I feel, or how to express how I feel about my Mom and Brother's deaths.
You'd know I could watch Penguins of Madagascar or Phineas & Ferb all day
You'd know that sometimes I can be an insensitive childish asshole.
You'd know that I love my Dad more than life itself, and I just hate myself when i do stupid shit and let him down or disappoint him.
You'd know that the popular, smart, athlete is really a soft crybaby. That he's crying while he types this.
You'd know I'm constantly afraid I will never live up to my family's expectations.
You'd know that I'm trying to get the guts to tell my Dad that I've smoked weed three times in the last year.
You'd know that I asked my Dad to adopt my best friend because I want him to be my brother for real.
You'd know that I'm embarrased and ashamed because I got used by a girl for a game while I was playing the "big man."
You'd know that I have a crush on a girl so deep it hurts.
You'd know I got Tickle me Elmo pajamas for xmas, and I wear em with my Spongebob slippers.
You'd know I'm no longer in a hurry to 'grow up'
You'd know how much I appreciate a place like this, with people like you, where I can talk about stuff like this.