[BlackFlowersFall]

I've started thinking about it and noticed that I'm last for a lot of things. Like in gym, I'm usually last to be picked for a team thing we're doing. Today we played kickball and I was picked last. I'm usually last to hear some news, whether it be in school or on the news. And going into the lunch line at school, even though I hurry or whatever, I always seem to end up at the end of the line behind my friends and everyone from my table. And if I have a project to present, I'm usually last to go. I'm usually last to be placed with a team activity.

I'm always on the outside of a crowd and when I sit on one side of a friend another one of their friends sits on the other side and I'm the last one he/she tells a story to or talks too. I try to tell myself "Don't think about it, you're used to being last at a lot of things and being left out." But it still hurts. I've tried to do this to other people to get them to feel how I feel but it never works out or I feel like a total bitch for doing it or for thinking about doing it.

I know that if I voice it or something people will just look at me like, "Are you insane or what?" Or "I don't care what you think." It just hurts and makes me feel bad. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to cry, which is stupid and would embarrass me till the end of the century. I don't think there's anything I can do about it and tend to just keep my thoughts to myself. I mean, I know I'm not that good at sports and that I would rather write or read a book, but do I really have to be left for last?

[Lemanstom]

Just don't let it get to you, everyone is last for something. For some people it's sports and in my case
I'm usually the last person that someone would pick for drama because I lack confidence in front of
crowds when I'm not passionate on what I'm talking about.

Theres not need to feel like a bitch, it's natural for people to worry and talk about their problems.
I'm sure that there are many qualities you have that would get you picked first for something.
Everyone isn't perfect, people have weaknesses but at the same time they also have many qualities
that make them good at many different activities.

[Kirk]

I always got picked last for sports/team activities. Same with the news, and the "talking too" thing.

Some people just don't care. I've always expressed my concern with the group of people I hang around with, but they're all selfish pricks anyway so it didn't do much good. They've all I've got at the moment though, so I guess I'll just have to be patient. I have no idea what your friends are like, so it could be useless saying anything...or it could be beneficial.

Like Cornish said, somebody has to be last for something. Unfortunately, it's also the case of some more than others.

Don't worry about it. Again, like Cornish said, you're bound to have qualities that would get you picked first for something.

[BlackFlowersFall]

Thanks guys
You're right, I shouldn't worry about being picked last for these types of things. Besides, there's just a few weeks left of school and I shouldn't worry about stuff like this! I'm joining Debate next year because arguing is something I love to do, so that's something to look forward to! After all, like you said Cornish, every has to be last for something.

[bmurdock60]

plus maybe your the last to hear that news but on the forums your probably the first to hear some one else news which is really important to them that is what i like about forums all the cool different view and things i learn from them. Plus i don't feel bad about asking questions and having someone think i am stupid or something.

[iMatthew]

Ashley, relax about it, it's no big thing, it's not like your life depends on it is it? It may just be a school thing, coz I always used to be picked last at school,, but now, i'm fine with it all . Goodluck