[laz0rc0wz]

I had just gotten into a huge fight with one of my best friends. This was our first one and it's been extremely shaky ever since. I know for a fact that we both feel guilty as ship but we can't get past that "awkward" phase of not wanting to talk to each other. I'm seeing her next Thursday/Friday soon before I leave for vacation and I really want to put this to rest before I go. I'm going to type a short summary of what happened and I would like you guys to just please tell me whose fault was this. It would help me find the correct words to say to her when we confront each other.

Basically the day before school was let out, Sierra messaged me on fbook saying that she wanted to hang out with me after school tomorrow. I told her that I had other plans but I could push them aside to hang with her. Me and Sierra have been on and off about having a relationship. It's happened twice that we both wanted to start something up but ended up casting it down because we're both afraid that it might make our friendship "awkward". I only get to see her once a week roughly, twice if I'm lucky. Sometimes I don't even see her at all for awhile but we make it up by spending larges chunks of time together. Anyways schools out and me and Lisa went out looking for her. We couldn't find her.

I called her but she didn't pick up. I gave Lisa her number and told her to call her but she didn't pick up either. After that we waited for 2 hours b4 Lisa got a call from Sierra. She told her to meet at Starbux, but she didn't call me... I called her afterwards but didn't mention that Lisa was right besides me. She told me to meet at Starbucks as well. So we walked down there, it's been around 2 and a half hours. We go there and shes not there. 10 minutes later we saw each other except she was with another friend. I asked if we still were gonna hang but she said to leave with Lisa. Wtf. I asked again if we were hanging and she told me to go away?

So I was pissed. I'm not gonna lie. I gave up all of my afternoon plans to see her and she brushes me off. But shes the one who even brought up the plans in the first place, so I had good reason to get mad. Hell I coulda partied the entire evening at a bonfire party at a friend's beach but instead I had to walk my ass up 3 gigantic hills to my house and sit there doing nothing the entire day because I had missed my ride for her. Isn't that a good reason to be just a tiny bit pissed?

Later that day she messaged me on facebook saying that she knew I was upset and that she was sorry. I pretty much dropped the bomb on her and told her why I was mad. I'm not going to lie, I was dropping tons of F bombs. I told her that if she didn't want to hang out, she could have at least told me before my rides left. Also I made it clear that I'm not some flippin teddy bear she can drag around all day. She said she completly understood and that she knew it was her fault.

Next day later we talked again except this time she started to shift the blame on me. Apparently I made her cry that evening and ruined the start of her summer, and since I was her best guy friend and that we've been so much together I shouldn't have said any of that. Apparently it was alright to get angry at her but crossing the line with F bombs? So her excuse basically was she was a girl and she can't take as much heat as a guy and that I was totally being ignorant about her feelings? That's pretty much how she tried summing it up. God dam one thing I hate about Sierra, is that she's never goddam considerate when it comes to stuff like this.

Sorry for turning this into a long post. I'm half mad half sad at the same time writing all of this. We've been through way too much to break I know that for sure, but I'm afraid that things wont be the same because I'm leaving within a week and wont be coming back until the first day of school... Gah... Any advice on how to word this all out to her on Friday?

Very much appreciated ~
Felix

[ThatPsycho]

It was definitely her fault for asking you to hang out then brushing you off, and you had a right to be angry. Maybe you shouldn't have got so angry with the F bombs, but everyone gets angry and stresses at people, and she shouldn't have done what she did. It's completely unfair of her to use the excuse that she's a girl and to try and make you guilty by saying you made her cry and all that, when it was her who started this. Maybe tell her that you're sorry for getting really angry at her, but you need an appology from her.