[mojorisin171]

Originally Posted by Sam1

Take this one step at a time.

Step one you've accomplished, you see that your life is going in the wrong direction and that needs to change.

Step two you've already accomplished, you see that the drug use is out of control and needs to stop.

You're on your way, it's easier to address a huge problem if you break it down into smaller, more easily managed parts.

Step three is for you to get some help getting those urges and bad judgment under control, so tomorrow you;re going to go to one AA, one CA, and one NA meeting, and get yourself a sponsor. You're also going to go the entire day with no drugs...which should be easy b/c you'll be in meetings all day!

Step Four is that you're going to report back to us tomorrow nite and let us know how that went.

Any questions?

Goddamn man.. Ok so here's the deal.. I admit that this VERY SECOND as I am sitting at my desk I am blowing a few lines. Since I'm getting a little coked up I am going to research my area for meetings and tomorrow, me willing and god helping, I will attend one or two and let you guys know how it went. If I don't post back, well, then I have lost all self control..

[Sam1]

Originally Posted by mojorisin171

Goddamn man.. Ok so here's the deal.. I admit that this VERY SECOND as I am sitting at my desk I am blowing a few lines. Since I'm getting a little coked up I am going to research my area for meetings and tomorrow, me willing and god helping, I will attend one or two and let you guys know how it went. If I don't post back, well, then I have lost all self control..

It doesn't look good if you can't talk with us about this and NOT blow, you know.

How about a dress rehearsal now and flush it all down the loo? This won't work if you have the stuff at home, anyways..and it won't work if you continue to use.

[mojorisin171]

Originally Posted by Sam1

It doesn't look good if you can't talk with us about this and NOT blow, you know.

How about a dress rehearsal now and flush it all down the loo? This won't work if you have the stuff at home, anyways..and it won't work if you continue to use.

Yeah I know. But trust me, when I first opened this thread I was completely sober. I did 2 lines just 5 minutes ago and so now I find myself saying things that I wouldn't have before. It's a weird feeling, like being able to do something you hate (like face your problems and opening about them) willingly.

I checked my area and there's quite a few meetings close by. Unfortunately the only one tm is about 30 miles away - should I go? Or wait till Wed or Thurs to attend a much more local one? As far as flushing it down the toilet... I felt like a full blown coke head when I read that suggestion of yours, which is VERY BAD since this is only like the 3rd or 4th time I've bought the stuff.

But listen I really appreciate you talking to me.. Makes me feel not so alone and I really am going to do something I am not just saying these words

[Sam1]

Go to all the meetings, make a day of it.

And stop using!

[Gray]

yeah i agree with Sam..