[EmeraldCat]

WARNING: very long Sorry :(

OK so this year started out horribly. So I went to school everyday for about 2 months with bully after bully. Girls and guys. I was told about rumors from my friends and lies were told to me everyday about things I "supposedly" did. I hurt everyday for the longest time. I went to teachers but there was only so much that they could do. I was told that I was stupid, ugly, and worthless everyday. When ur told the exact same thing for the longest time u start to believe it. I went to and from school everyday looking only at myself as one big pile of flaws. I had lost the ability to find my inner and outer beauty. I would go to school everyday and fake it until I had to leave class. I would leave class everyday at different times and go and cry in a corner or in our school chapel for about 10 minutes, go to the bathroom, gain composure and go back to class. Then I would go home everyday and fake it for my family because they r REALLY dramatic. I would cry myself to sleep every night.

So that is when I started cutting. I have many many cuts, and scars. I still cut but only on my really bad days now. No one has noticed my scars and I hope that they never will. They don't need to know.

Now I just feel worthless. I find myself more secluded and I have lost complete trust in most people. I don't wan to let anyone else into my life anymore because I'm afraid of what might happen if I do. There is so much that I'm afraid of that I cant even think outside my own fears anymore! I don't know what to do anymore

[Nobartholem]

Your cutting is detrimental to yourself and to others, first of all. And what happens if one of your bullies finds out you cut? that's more fuel to the fire, and you caused it all..

Now, when fighting bullies, there are a million strategies. Chose the one that works best for you, only you can figure that one out.