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Hi there, I have a question about what to eat after the gym.
I have been working out 2-3 times a day maybe more and I'm trying to help myself get better eating habbits. I have been suffering from an eating disorder on and off since grade 10, which no one knows about. I'm am highly determined to stay thin, but I want to be strong and healthy. I feel guilty everytime I eat, but I am trying so hard to just keep it healthy without straving myself, then binging and going to the bathroom. I'm sick of being that girl. Its frustrating. Instead of going to a doctor I feel like I can help myself since it hasn't been an on going thing since grade 10, just on and off with always exercising.. but now I'm in my first year of university and I noticed myself getting worse.
Today is the first day I am trying my new dieting with eating right.. but today I had natural oatmeal with an oatmeal apple muffin, along with an orange after the gym. I feel like that is so much to take in.. I instantly felt guilty, I fast walked home while keeping my belly tight hoping that would burn off the carbs.. and right now writing this, makes me feel even more guilty..
please help me, what sound I eat after the gym to stay thin and healthy?