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I went to the doctor today to have a problem with my lymph nodes tested. They're in my groin, so I expected a swab. Which terrified me.

When I was about to have the swab done I was scared to death. It was a tiny cottom swab but when they put it in it was so uncomfortable and scary I was almost crying. I actually was more happy to have my blood drawn.

I hate putting things inside me; the most I've done is about one finger, which even then felt uncomfortable and scary. I like the idea of sex, but with my fear that I experienced at the doctor with the tiny cotton swab made me think that maybe I'll be too scared to even have sex. Will I be a virgin forever? How do I get over this stupid fear?

you will be ok. it sounds like anxiety. i doubt you will be a virgin forever. you just have to relax. i was kinda the same way at the beginning of my pregnancy... O.o i did not want my dr down there. it can be embarrassing. if you have a male dr, you can switch to a female dr. i was actually more comfortable with a male dr. so are two of my sisters. you just have to relax. hope this helped a little bit.

It was a female doctor, with an intern there too. It was a super thin tiny swab but it hurt and I didn't like the feeling of it going in. I hated the whole thing. I've never liked my fingers inside me either. I don't know...is this even normal? Should I be worried that I don't like it?

those swabs can hurt. and can cause cramps after. (i know that that is different for everyone.)
and it can be normal. i didnt like anything inside me for a while (i.e. when i started masturbating, didnt like it.)

But I'm 17, the doctor was surprised when I said I wasn't sexually active and when I told her I'd never had anything in my really she was even more surprised. It's pathetic. I just don't like the feeling.

you are not pathetic.
i actually have a friend, she is 22 now, she has never had sex, never been sexually active, and i do not think that she has masturbated, like fingering herself.
everyone is different dee.

I know, but I don't want to always be a virgin. The problem is I don't enjoy penetration, and I want to—that's what a vagina is for! If I don't like sex I don't know if I have a chance at dating someone.

dee, things can change.
all you can do is try and use your fingers sometimes. that feeling may change. you may like it later on. and when you do get a guy. if he is understanding, then he will understand.

I'll try to use fingers more often, just to get used to it. I need to! I don't want to be afraid of sex. It's something I look forward to >.<

good
there is nothing to really be scared about.